Hey! Girl,Hey! Welcome to ABF's first blog post! Do you ever recall a time in your childhood when you have tried to run away? Have you ever heard of the saying: “Running away from your problems is a race you’ll never win”? Now, I’ve never had the guts to run away at such a young age from home because if you were raised by strong, didn’t play that mess Parents like mine, then honey, I would have been skinned alive! LOL! But in all seriousness, I have heard stories from others who tried to run away from home because they didn’t want to face the consequences of their actions once they got home. When I was about 10 years old, I remember getting in trouble at school because of my grades. After speaking to the principal, I almost knew immediately that she would be making a call to my parents about the events of that day. I was terrified, and as I proceeded off the school bus that day, I had thoughts of running away and not going back home. I didn’t want to face the harsh reality that my parents were going to punish me because of my actions in school that day. When I was a teenager, I got in trouble at school because of anger, and I was suspended for fighting and using curse words at someone. I just knew that I was going to receive some harsh discipline at school and home, and sure enough I did. I was so angry and thought I was grown, that I actually left from home. I packed my bags and left not realizing the course that my life would take due to my anger at my Parents for what I brought on myself. So as life went on, I continued to run when things got hard, I was afraid, didn’t want to face truth or confrontation, people didn’t do things the way I wanted, or I didn’t feel a person loved or treated me the way that I thought they should treat me.
The story of Jonah (Jonah 1:1-3) gives us much insight on how running from God, people, situations, relationships, and sin can cause us problems. Jonah was commissioned by God to deal with the wicked situation in Nineveh. God had a message for Jonah to deliver to Nineveh, but instead of being obedient, Jonah decided to run. You already know that didn’t make God happy, right? No matter how much Jonah tried to run, he knew God would find him. Jonah did what many of us do when we don’t want hear or be told to do something: moved to a place where he could no longer hear it.
As I was driving home from work in April 2018 , I was so unhappy at my job and wanted to run. Girl, I remember like it was yesterday, hearing the Holy Spirit say to me “Do you realize that you are always running? When are you going to stop? What lesson are you learning through it? What purpose does it solve?” I literally had a shock moment and replied “OMG, you are so right!” I realized that I was not only running away from life situations, but also God. I had run from God during my teenage years and most of my adult life because I didn’t want to face what he was requiring of me to do. Let’s be honest, I wanted to be grown, do my own thing, and didn’t want anyone telling me what to do. I was also fearful of accepting the calling on my life. I was numb to it all and wanted nothing to do with it, so I ran to get as far away as I could, but because you are reading this blog you see that God had other plans.
So my sister, I will ask you the same thing: What are you running from? Why are you running? What will it solve? What purpose does it have? Are you running from life, relationships, people, yourself, or sin? If so, I want to encourage you to stop and pump the brakes. I am a living witness that it is not going to help your journey. I know life may be hard at times and all you can think about is giving up and running away, but just know that you have such an AMAZING Father who loves, adores, and absolutely knows what is best for you. God doesn’t want you to be afraid. When the spirit of running comes against you I command you to REBUKE it. Speak against that spirit because you have the God given authority to do so! In that moment, that you feel like running drop to your knees in prayer and ask for help. Here is a prayer to help and encourage you:
Dear Heavenly Father:
I boldly come before you thanking you for being who you are! You know my situation and you know my life. You know that I am a runner. I want what I want and sometimes I shut you out of my thoughts. I pray against the spiritual struggle that I have endured in my heart and my life. Lord, my heart is overwhelmed by so many things, but I am asking that you would overwhelm me with your peace. Lead me to you as my Rock, my guide, my strength, my comfort and my refuge. Draw me to run to you first and not to other things. When life situations come, help me to find solace in you and know that you are my justice. Help me to know how much of a good and loving Father you are. I ask these things in your precious name. Amen.